1,200 days
1,200 days...
28,800 hours...
1,728,000 minutes...
That is how long Little Man has been in my life. And my life has changed in more than 2 million ways.
That's 1,200 days that his life has been in my hands and honestly, mine has been in his. In those 1,200 days here is what I have learned about being a mom.
1. I am no longer calling myself his "foster" mom but rather just mom and that has been the most emotional change in my life. I see myself as his mom, he is my son.
2. The amount of times people have told me how much they are amazed of the changes in Little Man in even the last 6 months proves that we are doing something right, even when it's exhausting, repetitive, and doesn't seem to be working.
3. The village needs to get bigger. In order to provide more support to myself, Jay, and to Little Man, I need to ask for more help. I have done a disservice to Little Man and others by sheltering him and others from his differences and because of that, I have kept our circle pretty small.
4. Dealing with a special needs kiddo is hard but dealing with one who is also trying to gain some independence and maturity is super hard - for me. I know I need to let him do things that I normally wouldn't let him do - to show my confidence in him and to allow him to build his own confidence but dang it, I absolutely don't want my Little Man to grow up.
5. Little Man said I was his best friend the other day and my heart sang. But it also sunk a little because I know he struggles to connect with people although there are so many that love him. My wish is for him to find friends that will see him for what he truly is and he learns that friends need to be an important part of his life.
28,800 hours...
1,728,000 minutes...
That is how long Little Man has been in my life. And my life has changed in more than 2 million ways.
That's 1,200 days that his life has been in my hands and honestly, mine has been in his. In those 1,200 days here is what I have learned about being a mom.
1. I am no longer calling myself his "foster" mom but rather just mom and that has been the most emotional change in my life. I see myself as his mom, he is my son.
2. The amount of times people have told me how much they are amazed of the changes in Little Man in even the last 6 months proves that we are doing something right, even when it's exhausting, repetitive, and doesn't seem to be working.
3. The village needs to get bigger. In order to provide more support to myself, Jay, and to Little Man, I need to ask for more help. I have done a disservice to Little Man and others by sheltering him and others from his differences and because of that, I have kept our circle pretty small.
4. Dealing with a special needs kiddo is hard but dealing with one who is also trying to gain some independence and maturity is super hard - for me. I know I need to let him do things that I normally wouldn't let him do - to show my confidence in him and to allow him to build his own confidence but dang it, I absolutely don't want my Little Man to grow up.
5. Little Man said I was his best friend the other day and my heart sang. But it also sunk a little because I know he struggles to connect with people although there are so many that love him. My wish is for him to find friends that will see him for what he truly is and he learns that friends need to be an important part of his life.
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